More journaling- this is going to be mainly about sex, so if you find that objectionable then feel free to skip to the next post
A little background, just after BD when we were in MC the C asked W about our relationship and specifically about sex. W mentioned that she really enjoyed the sex and wouldn't mind continuing it, but that she "didn't want to get his (my) hopes up". Well we did continue right up until 2 weeks ago. And it wasn't just "lay there and take it", she was quite enthusiastic about it. I broached the subject this past weekend and she said she didn't want to anymore. I asked her why, if it made her feel strange or what but she wasn't sure. I asked her if she was talking about then and there or for good and she mumbled something about not being sure about that either. So sex is now officially off the menu. At least I know where things stand in that regard. That'll make it easier to detach.
As a side note, I was surprised to hear her say back in MC that she enjoyed the sex so much, because for me it's always been OK but not great. I like to experiment and try different things and she likes to do the exact same thing every time. And she's definitely been the LD partner, but I will say that while I had to instigate 95% of the time she never turned me down.
Speaking of detaching, W continues to come over to my house every evening after work. Frankly I'm about done with that and I think I will talk to her about it this evening. If she's going to get her head straight in this separation then I think she needs to get away from me to do it. And I could use the time away from her too.
