I'm on holiday now w my mom but I'm sad I can't stop thinking about the state of my relationship. He sent me another text late Thursday 'i miss you - but I know I don't deserve a reply. I'm a terrible person' I waited 24 hrs before I replied 'you do deserve a response. I don't punish people for their actions. But I'd rather see/speak to you than txt. It's too difficult for me. I'm sorry you think you're a terrible person. We are all responsible for our actions & their consequences. Sometimes your choices may hurt others but that doesn't make you a terrible person. You have your reasons. I miss your company too, maybe we can do something tog when I'm back from hols. It's good to be in contact, I hope this channel remains open from now on'
Nothing back.
Am I doing this wrong? For two years I've accepted his distancing & coming close. Am I being too nice? Should I 180 and put a stop to this pandering? BUT an ultimatum scares me
Yesterday I had the thought that if my marriage was an animal we'd put it out of its misery. We wouldn't make it.take anymore emotional abuse.
Perhaps it was more about myself that I can't take anymore. Thats.what I.meant when I called.&.said I.couldnt do it anymore.
Thing is I'm pretty sure he.doesn't.want to end our marriage either.
Where do I go from here?
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
