Yes, i am so depressed right now. I need to put the focuse on me. very difficult. I was thinking that we never had a good marriage for a long time. Trouble from the get go. h very driven to do his own thing. Not as family oriented as I wished. Not to say I had no faults and did contribute to the breakdown but I never had my proper place in this marriage. Now he has proven himself to be a liar. That's really killing me.
My girls are 22 and 20. They know about the first incidence with ow. Not about this one. oldest daughter says our family is screwed up. Oldest son 31 doesn't know. He is from my first marriage. Infidelity in that one as well. I believe I don't want to live with H now but I have to wait. Try and get son 18 to finish school and graduate. He wants to go into the army.
