Hi you guys...hope your doing plenty of GAL'ing and staying well. All OK here, steady for now. I get upset some days because Cranky Pants gets snappy and you know how you feel when your giving everything to someone and you just want a little in return? Well it gets me down some days because I know I deserve better. Just when I feel like screaming "enough already!" he comes good and does something nice like bringing me coffee in bed or helping me around the house. Then I think WOW we are making progress, albeit slow, it IS progress, then I go back to believing in what I'm doing once again.
DB coach suggested a book "How to improve your relationship without talking about it". Well that's exactly what we are doing for now anyway....NOT talking about it. Down the track I believe we will have to go there, but its still rather raw and best left alone for now. Still building on that friendship and R slowly and I'm not going to lay the guilt trip on him. When I get down or confused I go back to reading all my MLC stuff and other recommended reading to get back on track. It really helps to understand the whole phenomenon about MLC, R's and being that lighthouse.
Well I don't believe i'm out of the woods yet, there's still a lot of work to do and I am certainly not going to become complacent. I've learned that I love my H, I took plenty of stuff for granted, and contributed plenty to our sitch. I won't fall into that trap again. I remember how much despair I felt just a few short weeks ago. Still GAL and taking it day by day.
Keep in touch, I love hearing from you, am always hoping for the best for you both and everyone here.
