So I've gotten some face time w/H without any nookie - about 4 hours in the last 2 days. It's nice to spend time together...
I'm not reading too much into it as it's mostly conversations about the move, house and the messed up sitch we're in. A little cuddling and a few kisses - but no getting naked!
I went over to the house tonite, I knew he'd had a hard day. I wanted to support him. I know how hard it is for him to leave that house...
It was difficult not to give in to temptation. I knew it would make him feel better - but I also knew that the feeling would be short lived. He says sex is just sex, but unless he's done some major 180s - that's not him. He's just not that guy.
He always questioned my 'loose' morals, because I could have had sex without love. He couldn't and to my knowledge, hasn't.
He asked me today why I am fighting for HIM? Why don't I take advantage of the move and just move on?
So I told him! It's because of who he is - the funny, sexy, handsome, smart man he is. Because it's him I want to spend my life with. And then tonight, while we were talking about the sale of the house, I asked him if I could add something to that list - because he feels like home. That's why the house being sold doesn't matter as much to me. He is where home is. (BTW: Our song is "Feels like home".) And then he reminded me that is what he said in January, when I was leaving...so messed up!
