Recap. W and I moved 13hrs away from our "home" almost a year ago for her job promotion. The stress of moving, selling our house, her mother passing, her new job, and my unemployment drove a wedge between us. W made it clear that she was "done" at the first of the year. We lived together as roomates until 3 months ago. We split time 50-50 with our S.
So in my last thread I left off with my W moving ever so slightly closer. I didn't play it cool, and she has run back to her hidey hole like the timid squirell the WAW is.
Contact the last couple of weeks has been very limited. I am ok with that. In some ways it is easier on the heart.
The most recent development of note: I asked W if she had any holiday plans lined out. That I was planning to take some time off to go back home to see family and wanted to take S with me.
To my suprise she said she planned on living back home by the first of November.
She had told me awhile back about a position back home that will be coming open. She said she would apply for it, but that it was highly unlikely that she would be allowed to transfer.
So she has been hot and cold to say the least about the possibility of getting this transfer.
A big part of me is very excited about the idea of moving back home.
A small part of me thinks that the added stress of moving, and taking on a new position will delay the chance of R, if there even is a chance.
So here it is all layed out there. I want to be back home like, yesterday. I only came here for W. For my family. I only stay here now so I can be close to my S. He is my world. I would not choose to live a life without him.
My parents have hinted that I should file for D and custody. That it takes two to make a M work and if W is not in it I should start moving on with my life.
Although I respect their opinion, I think I can move on with my life without filing for D or custody.
But it does put me in the predicament of waiting on W, and following her around. I have not come to terms with this. It leaves me feeling weak and powerless over my destinations.
