H has just gone out to look for some Pink Lady apples--supposedly. I suspect it will be an expedition that will last hours. I could find some in 5 minutes. I hate this. I was so tempted to try to get more info out of him but didn't.

I'm going to Canada on Tuesday for a week to see my grandmother. God knows what he'll do while I'm away. I have lots of care lined up for S13. I really hate feeling the way I do at the moment--anxious and with no control. I'm really tempted to hire a private investigator.

I need to remember that the way forward is for me to be someone only a fool would leave. He hates being 'under the spotlight' so questioning him about his whereabouts is certainly not going to help my cause. What if he just wants to have his cake and eat it too though? Aren't I just allowing this to happen?

Me: 51
H: 52
T: 23 yrs
M: 19 yrs
S18, D16, S14 (special needs)
PA: 2003/2004
Piecing: 2004 on
Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012