More journaling:

H has admitted he is very bitter because of the move. I try to remind him that even if we were together, the move would be happening. I've asked him to try to separate the moving from our R. Yes, it isn't convenient for this all to be happening at the same time - but they are two separate events.

He is VERY attached to our house. Whenever I'd applied for promotions, he was reluctant to leave the house. That's part of why I felt like I had no support when I was unsuccessful in those applications...he always seemed relieved that we wouldn't have to move...

He keeps reminding me of what his IC said - that if my feelings are real, they will still be there 6 months from now. Yesterday, he even said "One month down". It's like he's keeping track. And that's OK - I'm in this for the long-term. 6 months is nothing to wait. It took me more than that to realize that I want him and our M.

He hopes that he will have an easier time to deal with all this once I move away. It will be easier for him to detach. He says part of him wishes we would squeeze in as much sex as possible over the next 2 weeks because once I move, it will be rare.

I know - "believe none of what they say"! But it's hard on the head just the same...