busted affair again!

[newman7977]

Journaling,

Well I was able to rack some miles in my road bike today, it was enough to get me that feel good brain chemical lol. Tomorrow, Sunday morning I will join the group I've been riding with--just haven't ridden in 3 weeks.

So today Saturday, the rollercoaster goes on. While I was getting ready to go out to ride, W seem to be upbeat with me. She mentioned how busy she's been the last three days and basically gave me the scoop at what's happening to her work.

I engaged and really held back on giving advise and just STHU my mouth and just really tried to listen and validate. There was this little voices in my head coming from the posts here in DB and telling me "newman be a good listener!"

But I as mentioned I was GAL and was about to ride my bike. When W finished talking, I continued on my business and I left. Now is that a good move or should I have stuck around for more talking?

So the day went on and I got home. Another surprise is W asked me to pick up S12 cake, we are celebrating his b-day today. I say this is surprise because lately she's been asking people other than me for favors. So of course I said sure and I even took S12 with me. My question to the vets here, is this normal to the WAS, when they stopped asking LBS for favors as if making them feel very little? My W does this to me and it use to bug me maybe that's why she was doing that--but not today.

S12 and I had a good drive to the place, we talked, we had fun, and we ate lunch. It was sincerely good time and I felt good.

I was a little nervous about the get together, IL's came including SIL and her H (the only one that knows the EA in her family). This is the first time seeing them after the blow-up on 9/5. I talked briefly to SIL's H about the sitch and he's a little reserved about his opinions and he ask if we can hang out soon. Seems like he wants to talk more but not comfortable with everyone in the house. So one of these days will hang out.

Another positive is that W even put together my food and somehow when we bump each other, she was even playful about bumping me back. I'm like WTH,-- in my mind that is.

SIL and her H was the last one to leave so I thought they will talk about the sitch, but they didn't they just said how we doing and that was it. I'm kind of glad we didn't talk about it since it would put pressure to my W.

When everyone left all 5 of us just hanging out and talking and watching tv it was pleasant. W is still upbeat. We are talking about a big house and W said maybe we should buy a big house. Now this is the first time since the bomb. Since then I've been saying this and she always said a cold "NO". But tonight was different.

I can't make any sense of what's happening. I know that we are far from R. We are still sleeping separately. But it's good to see this little positives. Maybe it's nothing.

Anyway another day tomorrow. I will GAL with the kids since W is going with her co-workers to go out. This is within the norm they do this about once every two months.

What are you guys' thoughts? Sandi and Denver haven't heard from you guys, you guys are on long weekend or something? DM how you've been I'll check your thread shortly. 25yrsmlc, jack3, another stander thanks for keeping me in check lately. Chime in if you can.

PS sorry for the long post, typos, and grammar errors

Newman