Thank you ladies. I feel like I'm having an outer body experience. I don't feel like myself at all. H officially moved in with OW today. And will be taking the kids tomorrow. So now the kids will know that daddy is living with another woman and is still married to mommy.
My mind is all over the place. I don't know what to think. This is the biggest nightmare I could ever experience. And I can't just crawl in a whole and die like I want to right now. I have to continue to be happy and unphased by this as I continue to see him.
That is the worst part. Because nothing I say matters or is going to change anything. I want to be ok, I'm just really not right now.
As I've gone through my day today, I've just gone through the motions. Just a never-ending sickness to my stomach. He is so far ahead of me in moving forward. I need to get unstuck. I'm holding on to a R that isn't going to happen. This is the truth.
Moving on feels a little impossible right now. I miss him so much and yet I'm so angry with him for doing this.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
