After 18 months - H is finally filing.

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25 -

I had wanted to try to use this unemployment situation as an opportunity to work together with my H, showing my support, build trust and re-connect.

I wanted to trust H and not assume the worst, but I know that he doesn't trust me at all either anyways...and I hear you loud and clear - his actions are indicating that I shouldn't.

At this point I just have too much at risk here for me and the kids.

I wanted so bad for this D to not be contentious, and it kills me and I feel physically ill when I think that it will not be pretty and that I will have to fight just to get a fair deal. I know it's all business for H now and it needs to be for me as well.

I am grieving... I have trusted my H blindly, 100% for almost 20 years that we had been together. And it's all gone.

Who is this man? I just don't recognize my H in him at all.

THANK YOU, 25. You have been like a sister to me.
(((((25)))))