Slightly hopeful optimist..

[Just A Guy]

I know there are. I think part of me is just feeling the pains of GALing and separating myself from the M that was my identity. I truly feel like I am letting to of the fear that surrounds this sitch, the thought of not being with my W makes me more sad than afraid now which I view as progress.

I also have been focusing on a few rules at a time and making them habit then choosing another few and repeat. The goal is the better myself for my next R whether it be with my W or with some one else.

Of course I am still hoping it is with my W but I am no longer fearing the potential split. Sadness but hope.

"it's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen. But it's even harder to let go of something that is everything you have wanted."