Interesting that he changed philosophies, whether it's good or bad. I remember having the first book as a teen / early 20's. Didn't actually read much of it.
I'm glad you normalized my exact thoughts and feelings. I woke a few times early this morning; and have been thinking "this is such total BS, where's a for sale sign for the house?, I'm done!"
Things that I know factor into this are: 1. The meeting with the L, I think that's just the cold reality of acceptance of where things may end up. I need to reframe it as me taking protective measures for myself and the kids. 2. It's the W weekend away, she's probably with OM. That part I can accept, it's the PA aspect that hurts. Yes, due to Ego, but also Values. How much am I willing to bend??? I won't know until I know. I'm guessing I have already bent, as I haven't filed as I originally said if a PA existed. 3. Conversations with various family members, mine and hers (initiated by them). With them feeding my ego so to speak, and declaring how wrong W is in what she's doing, yada yada. The weirdest thing is that W's uncle, who is an okay guy, but I rarely talk with called last night and went on and on and on about how he "spotted" this on FB and what not and to make sure that I don't get "screwed over" etc. He is a bit jaded due to a divorce he went through years ago. 8)
So all in all, I guess I'm feeling as if I'm back to square 1. Or should I remind myself of two steps forward, one back? At least I'll ultimately be ahead one way or another...right?
