Hang in there... The cycling is normal. The tough patches are normal. I am about 6 months ahead of you in my timeline and I promise you that the periods of sadness and anger get shorter, less intense and happen less frequently as we continue our journey. I really cycle so much less and see my PMA increase so much with each passing month.
Patience, GALing and detaching... Everyone tries to pound that into our heads because that is the only way to get there. And I have found that patience not only refers to my exterior environment and sitch (H, family, etc.) but also patience with MYSELF - specially when I am going thru a tough patch or backslide. I need to allow myself to experience those bad patches and know that they will pass as well.
Look, I was in a very dark place just 24 hrs. ago. Thanks to all the support I have here, patience and continuing to work hard, I feel much better today and I am so thankful to everyone for their help. So hang in there and be good to yourself!!!
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PS - I am also in LA, and yes, this heat has been crazy. Maybe that has not helped us either - LOL... Although it is quite pleasant outside right now (yes, it's almost midnight and I am near the coast where it is cooler )
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
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