I am aware that I'm pinning myself as a victim and wallowing in self-pity. I have tried training myself to get out of this mode but I feel so defeated when I fall back in. I HATE IT!
I feel the same way. I'm noticing a continuous cycle for me. Feel good. Feel like crap. Feel hopeless and lost. Feel good again. And so on... I think that's why we have to continuously post here because it is such a constant battle to stay sane. I have to talk myself into being happy A LOT these days. Sometimes it just flows for a couple minutes and that's all I get. Other times it can last a couple hours and that's all I get.
We are not victims. This is something I need to remember too.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
