I have no willpower. I caved last night and again today...
We start talking about how good it is and he asks and I say yes.
Last night was a little different...I was ready to "jump" right in and he said 'wait, I want to hold you first'.
And tonight he asked me to email him when I know I'll be in town to visit, maybe I could come by...
I sent him a message after our rendez-vous of this afternoon (middle of his workday I might add) and told him that I should no longer spend time with him in the bdr if he doesn't want to spend time with me outside of it.
He replies that he understands and he will try to respect us both more. Then, three hours later, another sex-charged email and subsequent phone call...We were on the phone over an hour!
I have to be strong, but it isn't easy to say NO...I was successful in saying no tonite, but not sure I can be this strong next time...
