So an emotional wave or two or few have hit me today. It started as soon as I dropped S7 off for school as I then realized I was about to drop off S2 at my parents so I could go meet with L. Overall that meeting went well. She a.sewers my questions about the whole process in my state, she reassured me on some of my individual financial concerns (stocks, probable inheritance), looked at me as if I was crazy for the way I'm DBing and then understood my POV once I explained the sich to her. She obviously will help me, if needed, but we both hope not. Out of respect, she did not charge me anything for the more than an hour consult. So there were 2 moments of tearing up. Then I went to pick up my youngest, I became a little tearful with mom, and especially when I called to break the news to my sister. I still have to tell my sister-in law (my brother knows thanks to my dad a fee weeks ago). As far as telling them things, I'm giving them the basic details. Everyone here knows more than my family or friends. Oh, one other sad moment was me calling MIL about S7's grandparents day At school next week, she went into the whole it's killing her to know what's going on. U tried to end the call, I told her is rather not talk about it, that W would at some point need her support. She kept talking because she's a talker, finally she ended the call because she started crying, which in turn got me going. Today is rough, but at least I've had a lot more consecutive postive days this time around. I know I will get better, my sadness is normal for having to break the news to others. I will be okay. I'll post back later on.
