Stronger

[mishka422]

He has never mentioned our anniversary. I believe in his mind it was wiped out the day he left. My heart is still connected to him, forever. I can guarantee you that if he walked back out the door today I would not feel any differently in my heart. The best way I can describe it is that it's like my vows branded my heart and it won't be changed. Odd, I know, but those vows were spoken sacredly and that can't be undone.

Anywho....Gabe has a second job. He always has. It just doesn't pay enough to begin to make up the deficit. He is out every day filling out applications, he searches constantly online, driving around, etc. As far as school, he can't afford that! I don't know if he would want to do it anyway but there is no way to afford to pay for any schooling. I've been wanting to go back to school for years but I can't afford to do it. I'm already so far in debt that I can't even get a student loan.

No, he can't get unemployment because he was fired, not laid off.

I'm still looking for a second job also but hitting brick walls all the time. You would think I could find babysitting jobs or dog walking wouldn't you? Nope. Where I live, these people are bizzare! Their kids go with them practically everywhere and when they don't they do babysitting co-ops in their subdivisions. 75% of the homes in this city involve one stay-at-home or work-at-home person who takes care of their own dogs and they kennel them when they are away. It's the craziest thing I've ever seen!