The other thing that's really eating me lately is that d17 expressed to my mom that she thinks a lot of what's happening now is somewhat my fault. She doesn't know the A and we've talked to her about how this is equally both me and W's fault. She seemed she understood but I feel a little disconnect from her.

I just want to clarify that I don't intend to tell her W's EA because I know that would mess her up.

But how do I handle this, how more can I re-assure her that both me and her mom are equally at fault and not mostly me?

I think this is what really pulling me down. Also when I GAL wouldn't that clarify for her that "mom is right he's selfish doing his own things". My w was very vocal on her complaints during he years and she made sure everyone heard. Where I kept all that private because what mattered to me is my conscience not everyone's validation in the family.

I'll take your thoughts thanks again.

Newman

me40; W43
M18; T~20
D18; S13 & S3
bomb 5/9/11
EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM

Separated 4/1/14

"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.