THe rollar coaster sucks. I can understand how you are feeling. That is one reason why I went ahead and filed for my D, and just backed away and let her have what she seemed to want.....I couldn't take the limbo, and it seemed one sided anyway.
And sometimes I think maybe I was too hasty.
So, try and hang in there. There are so many positive signs, and maybe someone has to be outside the circle to really see them. You are so close to the sitch, and you have been through so much. It is so easy to see only the negative. I know.
So, I'm here to tell you that there is more positive than ever in your sitch. He doesn't want to lose you, that seems apparant, to me anyway. There are other things working on him that are bringing him down, IMHO. What they are, I can't say.
Quote: He said ILY and that he had spent 2003 trying to break us apart and wanted to spend 2004 putting us back toghether.
I can only speak for myself, but those are words that shouldn't be spoken lightly. He had a lot of time to think while you were gone. I don't know - it just seems as though he loves you, but is just LOST right now.
I guess what I am saying, is try and hang in there. It's hard, I know. But you have made progress. I know it's been uphill, and continues to be, and I know you things to level off. Hang in there. Don't give up.
Sorry for the ramble - just so hard to put into words what I'm thinking.
