Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

hopeful, it seems to me that you're wanting GAL activities with your H. it may help to focus on yourself and not yourself with H.

I thought a little bit more about this today, SS. I think this morning I was humiliated by his insensitive comments and my feelings were hurt. Who in the h3ll can talk about their W like that in public in front of her? I am trying to be supportive of what he is doing. I feel like I try to be supportive and excited about things for him, I get lured in and then I feel like the dog that gets kicked away and keeps coming back for more.

I need to figure out how to be supportive, since he thinks I'm not and am not interested in what he is doing, but not feel like that dog. I feel like he wants me to be his cheerleader is his efforts to separate himself from me and to live a more apart life than we already lead.

I also know from past experience that if I don't show an interest, he'll find some woman at a job site or restaurant to share stuff with who will think he is just the cats meow. And that's when I start to get jealous. Because what will happen is that if I start to turn off being interested in this motorcycle, he will find someone who is and put her on the back of it to make me mad and think there is nothing wrong with that.