Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

Today has been all over the board and I feel like leaving for the night.

H was running late for dinner and called to tell me where he was and that he would be home in a little bit. I thanked him and told him that I apprecaited his call.

He came home 30 minutes later. I sat with him at dinner and he lit into me about an invoice that I sent. Apparently I misunderstood what he wanted me to do. I apologized, told him I misunderstood what he said and that I would fix it. He kept going. I got up from the table and told him that I would not tolerate being spoken to in that manner and would come back when he was ready to talk to me in a decent tone.

I left, did something in the bedroom and then went to the kitchen. He then came in there and started in on me again, started calling me names, asking how I could be so stupid that I have a law degree but can't do simple math. I again told him I misunderstood what he told me and that I would fix the problem and I walked away.

I went to my desk to fix the issue and he started again and then asked why we keep having the same discussion. I stopped what I was doing and looked at him and said because you keep bringing it up. I told you that I would fix it and I've already apologized for misunderstanding what you wanted. I then told him that I would no longer tolerate being yelled at and spoken to in the manner he was using.

I then turned around and finished what I was doing. He then started in on he was going to find someone else to do the billing because he was tired of my making mistakes, blah blah blah.

I kept myself under control and did not argue.

I went to bed and was crying. He came in a few minutes later and my blood started to boil. I told him that I didn't feel like I could sleep in the house tonight and I would be back.

All he cared about was whether or not I would be home so he could go on his trip, or was I going to come home later on purpose so that he couldn't go. I told him to just keep worrying about himself and I would be home later.

How do you go from being courteous to an a$$ within 30 minutes? I know I shouldn't have reacted and gotten up. I am so tired of being called names and having my education thrown in my face. He is so unclear in the way that he communicates with me and doesn't always tell me what he is thinking and expects me to be able to read his mind. His ranting tonight is one example.

I had done exactly as he told me. What's worse is that I emailed him the original bill 2 weeks ago. He told me he couldn't read email on his iPhone and was too busy to look at the emails on his computer. That's funny, I see him look at his email every morning and night. He can look at the crap but he's too busy to look at work related items?

I guess being able to not react during the argument was good. I need to take it to the next step and not boil afterwards. I probably should have let him go to bed and then stayed up.