That said, days like today where it's gray and rainy out and no one else is in the office, I find my mind wandering a little more than I'm comfortable with... Wondering how W is doing and if I'm on her mind very much (if at all) these days. But then I just remind myself that If I am, then I am, and if I'm not, then I'm not... It doesn't change what I must do to keep progressing in my own life.
I've made it my mission to keep focusing on bettering myself, my situation and my outlook on life. I know I still love W very much, and my head and heart still want to have a R in the future, but I also know that it won't work without a lot more personal growth on my end. After all, I need to fix the things in me that contributed to her becoming a WAW or we don't ever stand a chance.
I totally hear what you are saying about wondering why you're standing for a marriage to the woman your W currently is. Hell, I think everyone on these boards has felt that way at one time or another... And in all honesty, NONE of us want (or should want) a relationship with the person they've become... but we all know we got married for a reason, and despite these extraordinarily tough times, most of us see the potential for a light at the end of the tunnel. We all just need to make sure we're working toward that light on our own.
Yes my friend. You said it. It' s not raining and gray over here but I get that same feeling. I also know what I need to do right now and that's what I'll be focusing on.
Thanks for the uplifting words mate.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
