First, don't despair, because there is always hope and always a chance for reconciliation! Second, buy DB and DR and read them cover-to-cover and immediately put the recommendations into action. The begging/ pleading you did was absolutely the wrong thing to do and likely drove your H away, but that's OK because nearly all of us did the same before discovering DB. Just put it behind you and focus on DB'ing and expect this to take a good amount of time to resolve. Read the books and then come back and ask questions, we're here for you!
