IH Separation-continuing to grow as we grow apart

[breakdownbill]

Hi Chatterbug

I slipped, thinking I could do more in terms of my efforts to make my W see what she was throwing away. Some of those goals were written when I was upset after an argument with my W yesterday about changing plans at uni for w's work.

Some of those goals I had written, when I read them this morning are ridiculous, but my emotions were all over the place when I started to write them.

I like some of things I was talking about concerning communication and organisation, but everything else was fuzzy thinking.

We followed up yesterday's fight with an apology from me that led to an R talk, I'd had enough and instead of dodging it I asked all the q's I wanted answers about OM, what she wanted and you can guess the rest.

I got all the scripted answers, we both got upset, my W wishes she could get past her resentments to work on us, but she can't. I told her how much what she had been doing by bringing a 3rd party into our M and that whatever we do now will be hard.

I can't write much more this morning, i'm rushing for school but we are at the very least going to now separate.

I got confused on my path, wobbled and now it is clearer.

I am not going to fight this anymore in terms of staying together - I am better than this and I am dropping the rope, no ifs or buts.

I'll be ok - I knew this would happen sooner or later.

Bill