So tonight at home, Nothing really to report, but while eating dinner, W was feeding s3 and for some reason she sat next to me. I even kind of freaked out because lately that rarely happens. While feeding s3, she also brushed my arm and back, made me kind of jumpy I hope she didn't notice. Then, it is back to far end of the couch...WTH. I just don't get it sometimes.
I know, I'm probably making a whole lot of nothing but I thought that was interesting.
Weekend will be interesting SIL and W family coming over--this will be awkward. But if I haven't update you lately, only SIL and her H knows the EA last week. I also felt they are dark on me, they haven't even asked me how I'm doing. We text a lot last weekend and all of a sudden they stopped replying.
I think what's happening is that, although they don't agree with W having an EA, they will support Ws decision if we D for all the pain I put her through.
Yep, that's the bad effect of telling SIL about the EA, it also exposes my bad ways. Of course they know her faults, but they will be on her side--well I knew than. Anyways, we'll see how this play out.
I will fight all this by concentrating on me and my kids. Right now that's all that matters. I'll be a better man and father and hope that W would join me.
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
