Do I want a divorce - No. Will I get a d - I' m not too sure. I love my my wife. For all the years I've been DBing I've learned to be a better person. My wife is a good person but, she can't find any time for me. Yes, there are times we do things together. Except I am the last person to do anything with on her list. To be blunt about it her friends come before me. DBing has taught me to accept this fact. MC has reminded me that I need to DB more.
Maybe you can understand what I am trying to say or maybe it's unclear. For me I see a divorce in my future. With all the DBing I've been doing I can accept it. With all the MC sessions I will learn to deal with my decision. I still and always will Love my wife. She was an important person in my life.
So why will i not get a d? Simple. I still Love her. I've replaced my negative feelings with actions. She doesn't want to spend time with me, then I visit my new friends. This helps me cope with my feelings of being abandoned. If she graces me with her some of her (sarcasm) time. I accept what she is willing to give.
When the time comes she will see someone who she thought was weak be stronger. If I don't D then I've somehow become complacent. Which really is the modern version of nivanna. Still in the same old stich, except being able to deal with it and somehow find happiness.
