H called again last night...didn't ask me over, but hinted. I didn't bite. Truthfully, I'd already been sleeping for almost an hour when he called, otherwise I'd have been tempted.
And then no messages from H today. That feels so weird...
And he had a good reason to send one. One of the appraisers called today for appointment, he could have messaged to confirm the appointment. It's good that we're taking some space.
Plus he acknowledged yesterday that he understood this was all very stressful for me too.
Told a good friend tonight about my change of heart. She was surprised and at the same time she couldn't believe the difference in my attitude from a just over year ago to now.
When we reconciled last summer, she was worried because issues were never addressed. No admission of wrongdoings or MC, just a decision to "try" to work things out. And not surprised when they didn't...
That is a huge improvement from last July. I have admitted my share of the problems and have resolved to work on my shortcomings. Last July I was convinced it was his fault and I was only reacting to his 'faults'.
I didn't realize that I was part of the problem. I felt I my feelings/thoughts/actions were a result of the problem. Acknowledging that I have to share the blame, plus I have my own issues to deal with is a HUGE step forward! And she sees that
