Sorry Tumbling i just noticed your questions . Im gonna try and get out more at weekends definately . Im home now i was away for 2 days finishing a job 'up north' ( an english expression when ever you are refering to somewhere more northern than the city you live in , and has to be said in your best 'northern accent ' for instance " opp narrrth " likewise when you are somewhere more southern than your hometown you are ' down south ' or "darn sarrff " said in my best cockney accent . Im actually in the midlands . Staffordshire where they make the pottery .) Right sorry about that just rambling on like an eejit. yes and i found the counselling did help a lot , it was like holding up a mirror and seeing what i was like to be in a r with . So i made changes and stuck to them , i trusted my wife when she went out and i was pleased for her , i did and do a lot more around the house which was another one of her gripes . Around the time of that counselling ( about this time last year ) we went on our family summer holiday . It was great , we all had a great time , and i asked if i could come home . She said ok then , but i was to sleep in my daughters room . She likes to sleep with her mum . and the intimate side was off limits for the time being . I was delighted , just to be back home again with my 3 girls . It was uncomfortable at first but things got better and better . We even started to resume a sporadic sex life , but i new it was out of pity on her part and she didnt enjoy it . We had christmas and started the new year and so on , i genuinely thought we had made it through a really rough patch , but around my w birthday (end of july ) it all came back again . She said the trigger was me whinging about how we dont do anything together and how shes out with her friends a bit . ( she also went to marrakech with her 2 best friends around april for 3 nights , on a girlie thing . I acted poorly and was a bit jellous of the whole thing .) And now she says after the first troubles last year things did get better but plateau-ed and weren't as good as i thought they were .for her at least . But i dont really know if that is her present mindset re-writing the history to suit her situation ? Who knows ? With the self essteem thing it sort of comes and goes . At the mo i feel quite upbeat about my general life ( apart from my M ) so thats a positive . We, me the w and our 2 D's have just come back off this years summer holiday in South of france , which was mainly great with a couple of horrible mean argument days due to our sitch . Hey-ho , keep my chin up .
