Well we're going on week two without any "meaningful" communication with W. I qualify it because I had to forward W a work-related email yesterday, to which she responded in a strictly-business approach... letting me know she's working a temp job this week and will be back to her other duties starting tomorrow, an arrangement that gels fine with her job-description as she's only asked to work 10 hours a week for my company.

I responded to her email, answering the work related question she posed and ending with "Thanks W. I hope you're doing well".

Today, despite the lack of a response, I'm not feeling the usual "sting" that comes after our communications. Probably because it was strictly-business. Or maybe I'm just doing a better job detaching than I've given myself credit for.

After all, I'm starting to remind myself, whenever I feel the pains of W's absence, whenever I start missing her in a substantial way, I'm reminding myself that she made the decision to leave, that she's making the decision to continue with OM, and that she's making the decision to not reach out. When all these things factor in, the missing of my W fades just enough that I can breathe normally again and work on pushing my thoughts to something more productive.

I FINALLY woke up early this morning and forced myself into the Gym... For 12 weeks I made it my routine to do this every Monday-Friday and occasionally on the weekend... But over the last couple weeks, I've slacked off to two or three times a week... Which I can't do. And, when I left the gym this morning, my body reminded me of WHY I need to keep this up... The euphoria that comes from a good workout lasts most of the day... And the results I see in the mirror help boost that fragile self-esteem!

So in short: Today I miss her, but I don't NEED her. I want to work things out, but I'm already doing everything I can do (at least for now) to contribute to that and I can't get upset if I don't see progress from her end... Because she's made her decisions and I've made mine... I'm paving a path home, but I'm not waiting to take her by the hand and guide her. I'm just leaving a trail of awesome behind that she can follow if she wishes...