Thanks for the response. I'm not sure that is completely fair. I am changing me for myself, and I have detached to the best of my ability. I will be a better person with or without her. But if the "with" is even an option, how can she ever know the person that I am becoming to make that choice? I just need to get through this dinner tonight so I can completely detach and not have the distraction.
I do have a question. I have always followed the traditional anniversary gifts and the 3 year gift is supposed to be leather. So I went out and got a leather picture album and filled it with pictures of us. I did this really because I knew that I needed to face the pain rather than hiding from it and looking through 6 years of memories with my W was certainly the most painful thing that I have ever done so I'm not sure if that helped or hurt. Anyway, my question is, should I still give this gift to her for our anniversary? I'm really not expecting anything out of giving it to her but I feel that she deserves to have it. Any thoughts????
Me - 32 Wife - 31 No kids Married - 3 Together - 6 "I need space" - July 2012 Bomb/Presence of OM - August 2012 Separation - September 2012