I think my life is like a soap opera, I sometimes just want the show to be cancelled... really.

This weekend was such a roller coaster. My mother in law was driving around town drunk and upset, we live several states away, so when my H called to check on her she ripped him a new one about his affair and how he is treating me and how upset she was that the OW posted a picture of him and her on her facebook. He got upset with ME, for his mom seeing that-- but shouldn't he be upset with the OW? I guess he feels like I told his mom the girl's page, which is true, but she would have found it eventually, I mean its public stuff. Anyway, so that was the start of a turbulent weekend... then Saturday they were fighting.. so of course he comes home... about how he can't trust her... and then he leaves again Sunday... and I don't hear from him most of Monday so I basically continue to ask him not to come around... to please leave me alone... well today I come home and he is home supposedly permanently now... she sent naked pictures to men on her phone or something... but i doubt this is really the deal breaker... I am excited about talking to a new counselor next week so I can set a path for myself and start to change my life for one I like.. I still don't want to be divorced.. but right now I don't like how things are.. right now my husband is basically mourning the loss of another woman, and I just am hesistant to believe it is really over... but perhaps this will be the SNAP that I need to open my eyes and start seeing clearly... I don't really know anymore

M-28
H-28
M-9 1/2 years
T- 12 years
PA- 01/02/12 (still going on)