The changes are for me and the sad thing is I could not be happier with who I am now and what I hope to become. Also ashamed at what I was. Getting rid of my negative view point on everything has opened up the world to me and some employees at my company have even commented on how I seem to be more relaxed and do not get bent out of shape over little things. Just hope to share the new me with my wife for the rest of our lives but I also realize that if things do not work out I need to change who I am to have a chance at long term relationships in the future too.
The expectations are hard to manage because we do get along so well together and I have very strong feelings for her but I have to remind myself that until she is ready we are really just best friends.
