I think I am truly DETACHING.
I think I am going to be OK.
I don't want H back right now - he has really hurt me and I deserve better.
I really miss his company but I don't miss the caving and rejection stuff.
He hasn't replied to the admin house quote email (yet, tomorrow was my deadline for response.) I have now questioned the price and got it reduced by 1/3. So if H doesn't reply I am going to update him with that info and that I am going ahead.
I am not thinking about the divorce process - that makes me feel sad so until I can think about that with less emotional reaction, I'm not going there. Can't start til Nov 1st anyways.

Out tonight with girlfriend. No time for dwelling.

I love this board. It's helping me process.

Tumbling

ME41 H39
T12 M9
Ilybinilwy 10/2010
H moves out 11/2010
H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011
Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012
Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-)
"Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"