month 4

[scaredsilly]

carnac, i don't think i've ever posted to you but i felt for you reading your posts today.

i just want you to know that it's been over 8 months since my BD and finally, my H is questioning life without me. as of 8/21, he was sure he would not come home. now, he's emailing me, telling me he's sorry, and, in my mind, questioning his decision.

i don't know what happened other than me telling him i was moving on that day. but, and this is a very BIG but, i was not saying that as a tactic. i was ready and i'm still ready.

i reached a point where i knew i would be better off without him than the limbo i was in and i knew i would be happy because my happiness was returning and i WAS without him.

so, all i can say is give it TIME. people change; she will and you will. look at what cadet said when you first got on here: she's given you the gift of time. that's SO right.

i'm a better person today because of that time and i think my H is, too. i don't know if we will R because i AM better and i will want a better M and that would have to be possible with him.

however, i'm not afraid anymore. i'm happy. you will be, too. give it time and consider yourself fortunate.