Like Carnac says, just think about one day at a time.
Whenever you feel like calling or texting, reassess your reasons for doing it. Don't make up stuff about your S or other excuses. Stop and think about it. Does it really warrant contacting him? If you still think so, then come on here and ask us. We'll tell you and by that time, for one, the urge should be gone and second, you might get ideas on how to better communicate what you want to say to him.
How often does he pick up your S? if it's daily, just wait for him t be there picking up your S to tell him stuff. Keep it short, simple, business-like and avoid any pursuit or R talk. Be the first one to end to convo.
It's not easy but again, we all go through this and it isn't easy for any one but do you want to know what it a lot more difficult? Knowing that you've lost him forever because you couldn't exert self-control.
Come one MrsD. I really think you have a chance at this based on what happened a few weeks ago. You were doing well and then you got pushy. Back off. Give him space. Let him do the first move and please, stop pursuing!!
Good luck girl!
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then