It is hard to be aware of that stuff when it is happening.. I did the same, shut my W out in ways without realizing it. Please remind yourself that you did your best, if you had known differently, you would have done it. I think Ms bring out those issues for healing... unfortunately, we live in a society that does not understand and support this process.
Thanks for stopping by ng! There are many things I wished I had known before. I can say, though, that the changes I have made show me that when you know better, you do better.