Honestly, you're still making excuses. You're just excusing the fact that you're making excuses in your posts. We all miss our Hs. Hold yourself to some better standards and try looking at why you are just doing what you want and then trying to excuse it. I would give you a 2x4 but I don't know how to make those. You are better than how you've been acting. There is a terrific person in there. Let her out and have faith in her. You really can do it.
