I stayed mostly to myself today. Fought several urges to go to H to get comfort in his arms. H$LL, I'm still fighting that feeling. I know he would try to comfort me, just like he tried to do last night when I was a hysterical mess. He hasn't seen me like that very often. Probably never. Not sure I like being so vulnerable in front of him right now.
Spent a lot of time today thinking...about things my H said last night, about how much pain we are both in, about things that came up for me last night, and about everything you guys wrote today. I really don't know what my next steps should be. Guess I just need to get back to the basics and just put one foot in front of the other.
