Does anyone agree that the basis of a solid relationship is a good frienship?
I've really been going down memory lane guys...
It's bad. Im kinda pissed about it. I worked on some healing excercises and was trying to visualize all the hurt and betrayal going away.
Well I think it worked, but now Im rolling in the good memories now.
I realized that I stuffed those down for a long long time in order to help me keep moving foward! I guess it served it's purpose for a while, but now I kinda feel like maybe I finally made it to the finish line.... or at least where I wanted to be!
Im here, but it's not like I imagined it. I imagined me being happy, and independent, and enjoying life again, but to NOT have so many memories of life with XH.
He's be a distant thought. Barely and exisitence. Just something I did once in my life.
But that is the farthest thing I think now. Does it become that way after you get involved with someone else? They become distanct memories, and you acknowledge their exisitence?
I guess it's ok for me to admit I miss him very much. But I miss the him that was happy, and not in MLC. For the longest time I was thinking that maybe he really was like this all along and that I just didn't see it. But no, I don't think so.
We really did have a great time together. The good memories were real.
So I guess I'll just cherish them for what they really were at the time.
