The part of db'ing I am back to is trying not to initite contact. The rest of my efforts I continued and still continue. I do know I have a long way to go and I can't stop working on myself. The part I did not do well was to jump right back into the relationship. She said she wanted to make it work. She even agreed to go to MC with me. I set up the appointment but by the time the appointment rolled around all these other things happen. Today was good and bad. Miss her a lot but also realize she is doing what is right for her boys. I have to try and remember that. I need to remember I can't make her work on the relationship and I need to focus on what I can change/ improve (me). I am not giving up even though sometimes it feels like ti would be easier to do just that. She/ We areworth waiting for. I think that if I continue to work on myself and let someof this custody battle get resolved. Then see how thhings turn out. I have been doing a lot of reading and also found a support group I am going to give a try tonight. The hardest part of this is the feeling of hopelessness and that is something I need to work on. My happiness should not depend on her. Easier said than done.
I also think I need to work on some ways to connect with her boys. Any suggestions?
M-45 W-44 2D - 11&13 2SS - 11&17 Married 10/10/10 Bomb 3/5/12 Moved 5 houses away 4/20/12 Back together 9/12 Seperated 6/13 Divorce Final 11/13/13
