Bit of a setback this weekend that prompted a forward move - literally:) Had put the house up for lease (after speaking with XH in August - who said it was fine to do because houses weren't moving in this area and he wasn't in a hurry). First family came in and wanted it....AWESOME! Out of the blue - email from XH. VERY cold - basically a checklist. Here's son's license bill for his car (remember XH was responsible for s's car). Also - house is going up for sale at end of month per divorce decree. If it doesn't sell - going to auction in a month. WHAT? Apparently new gf of 4 months wants all ties broken sooner rather than later. OK....fine iwth me. Told him I would be out of house on the 21st (ironically what would have been our 27th anniversary) and that he would be responsible for selling the house. I only stayed in the house to have one less loss for son - kids and I have loved living in this old flawed house - it has our character:) End of the day though - it's a thing. SO....having HUGE moving sale on Saturday. Moving into my oldest D's house while it's up for sale. They have moved into their new house. This is nice for me.
XH visited middle d last week. She said X was wearing a necklace with a whistle on it. She asked her dad about it - he told her new gf had googled him and found out he was a star high school bb player. She had his stats engraved on it... D thought it was interesting what generates his pride these days. He never was able to transition from the pride of youth achievements to the selfless pride that comes from leading a family. Smart kid...
So I'm selling everything the kids don't want and breaking free from the last hold the marriage has had on me. I think it will be good for me... Figuring out what is next for me...fighting anxiety and trying to find some peace.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
