Had such a hard time today crying on and off. My h wants to go out of town to supposedly visit his cousin. I think he wants to go away with OW. Thanks for your advice T. How the hell did you handle 4 oms without being a mental wreck? Is she recommitted to your marriage? Part of me wants him the hell away! This deceit eats at me. I pray all the time.
I need to talk to someone. Here is a good place. Told a girlfriend about my husband just leaving and not telling me where he went as I mentioned above and she thinks I should separate. Not gonna talk to her about it anymore. Her husband is an alcholic an a big flirt. Her marriage isn't that hot but she sort of says at least her h tries (b.s.!) My priest told me to only talk to him or my counselor. I have been hurtin lately and unfortunately I did tell my one daughter that H saw ow at work. She doesn't get too emotional and I did belly ache to kids and h's sister about how he's been such a nasty to me. I know I shouldn't. I am trying to keep my mouth shut now. Just hurts.
On the one hand I am scared of losing him and on the other I feel depressed having him around. Sometimes I feel strong like I can detach and other times like a pathetic weakling
