Ultramarathon finish line or hallucinations?

[jbnati]

I've had a few developments over the last week. The most significant one occurred today.

I finally received the draft settlement agreement from my L. My L indicated this is a proposal and she didn't think I would agree to it. It's not horrible, but I have a page and a half so far of handwritten notes of questions and things I would like to change. I am looking at it right now as the worst case scenario. How is this hitting me emotionally? Good question, thanks for asking. Frankly, I'm still trying to figure that out. It didn't have nearly the impact it would've had 15 months ago when I was originally supposed to receive it. Part of me is just weary of being a married bachelor. Part of me is a little ticked that she can actually ask for some of this stuff and get away with it. Part of me realizes this is just another step of many in the process. I think I need to process this for awhile before I get together with my L and counter.

Last week, we had a doctor appointment for my S. It was a yearly checkup. We got into the discussion about his supposed "anger" issues. My W had to talk about it, but I don't see the issues at the level if at all that she does. The doctor recommended a C. I will work on getting something set up. Hopefully we can get to the point of the real issue. Noteworthy - the doctor did ask if he showed these issues around any particular person. The answer was OM.

Speaking of OM, my S indicated on the way to the doctor that he thought OM and W had broke up. On the way home, I asked him how he felt about it. He said he was kinda glad. He said he wanted Mom to be happy. I just told him it wasn't anybody's job but her own to make her happy.

Confession time: On a brilliant moment last Thursday night, I decided to go against my own advice and the advice of many on this MB, and I perused my W's FB page. I saw a ILY post on her wall from OM. No responses to it. So either they are still together or it was begging and pleading on his part. I also checked out his page. I noticed he has his employer listed as Farmville. He's also 7 years youngger than my W. Oh well, I shoudn't have gone there, but I did.

My W interrupted my weekend with my S this last weekend. She sent me a text asking for her W2s and 1099s (supposedly for the house) and asked if she could have my S for Sunday afternoon so he could visit with his favorite cousin. Seems like I always get ticked when she texts and asks for something. I thought it through, however, and agreed to let her have my S for Sunday afternoon. I'm going to need her to be flexible at times, too. I told her she could pick him up after church - then she wanted me to go to the earlier service. I finally thought that through and worked it out so I could take a 50 mile ride on Sunday afternoon.

Still GAL'ing of course. I took my S to a minor league playoff game on Sunday night. Last Thursday I went for a group bike ride. Yesterday was a solo ride, but it was still a nice day. 3 mile run last Wednesday morning.