I'll check out that story during my lunch at work.
Is it possible I'm becoming a WAS? I am starting to have a lot of resentment towards W's actions but at the same time I still love her very much.
I am still scared of this trial separation. I'm aware that this could be what W really want for her life to be OR she could miss the life she has with me and our family. I mean, we tried for 4mos since the bomb on the EA, we were together and nothing changed the attachment to OM is really strong.
OM lives thousand of miles away so the romantic stage is very strong since all they have is the communication without any stressors of life, just the beautiful fantasy words behind the computer--but she doesnt get that. And I think at the same time when she's not communicating with OM she's getting the convenience of relationship when she gets home with me.
Actually, it's been over a year since the ILY...bomb. Since then she's expressed that she wants to work things with us BUT she doesn't know how to get it back--the feelings for me. I'm simply just a friend and the father to our kids nothing more, she even express she feels trapped and she doesn't want to commit. I think because her feelings are preoccupied with OM. I don't stand a chance against OM, all I have to offer her is the reality of life and unfortunately with everyday stress, although she noticed my good changes but seemed like they're not enough to go against her fantasy.
I don't want a divorce, I just want her to realize what she really wants in her life. And if to love her means to let her go then I will.
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
