You know you mention alot about your H's faults. And how even though you played a part, it's ultimately his fault for the breakdown. Quite honestly, the reason why you've been unsuccessful is that you can't own up to your part fully.
You mention that he's "not the person you married" and all the problems you went through together. I don't think you realized how much those issues affected him. Over the course of years, YOU changed him the most.
In fact, you say that he's disrespectful for telling everyone about new OW. He really isn't. That's just how YOU feel. YOU would rather keep it quiet. Many of this can be avoided if you stopped thinking about you for a change and really started thinking about HIS NEEDS and be compassionate to them.
For the most part you have to get rid of the resentment and anger. If you truly own your part to the breakdown, then you shouldn't have the resentment any way because you were at fault too. Just because he doesn't feel like working thing out right now, doesn't make things wrong. You want things according to YOUR timeline. Unfortunately it has to be HIS timeline that you have to pay attention to.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
