I had to get out of the house I'm just simply going insane. Every time I see W on her phone and laptop my brain just go nuts thinking she's communicating with OM.

I have to find myself again. I know I'm stronger than this, I just can't allow this to mess me up. I have to strike everything out and focus on kids and myself. I'm letting this weekend grieve. I hope tomorrow I can do my 180s and GAL again back to work. First I have to get some sleep at night.

We will try separation this week. Hope this really help me from these obsessions. Get clear thoughts on what directions my life would be. What do I really want? I feel confused right now.

Newman

me40; W43
M18; T~20
D18; S13 & S3
bomb 5/9/11
EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM

Separated 4/1/14

"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.