It's just the time of day that made it feel like a "booty call" - had it been an noon instead of midnight, the same descriptor may not have applied.
It is enjoyable and I don't feel bad. It's been a week of "freedom", no "I feel guilty" emails the next morning" - progress??
And he actually spoke about moving with me when I move at the end of the month...taking that with the old adage "believe none of what they say..." - but nice to hear him even consider the idea.
I've been asked about the lack of D from friends and family - I just wasn't at that point. Also, it does take a year to apply for one - but it was never something I wanted or asked for.
I didn't even change my name back yet either. Which many consider strange as there are no children involved. I finally changed my name on Facebook, but only after H went public with new R.
It was the finality of D, along with everything that has finality (ie: changing wills, beneficiaries, health plans), that kept me thinking that all I needed was a break. I didn't WANT to deal with those things - it made it feel too "real".
When he starting dating, I was preparing myself for the day that H might ask for D. It seemed to me that he might want to marry OW one day.
As for lack of intimacy with OM while separated - had a few offers - just wasn't interested. Which, to me, confirmed that the intimacy problems in our M were with me not us. I didn't feel like s_x until after I had a week of NOTHING and some 50 Shades. But the books just made me miss my H not wanting to go looking for some quick fix.
