lol..bug for u i would do it for free. pay it forward and all that. plus i could really use a vacation. i kinda owe ya for all the help over these months. i dont know where i would be without ya. you always got me thinking. never told me what to do. just gave me stuff to think about and let me make up my own mind. i appreciate it.
sun- i know it will get better. i am way better at spotting the crazies. i see co dependant people now for what it is. im not doing that again. i dont need a woman to complete me, i want someone to compement me. i am keeping my options open, yet not looking for anything. the sun will shine again. that i know. my favorite saying is, in order to see the rainbow you have to stand in the rain. or someting like that.
brit- what can i say. you still amaze me. its good to know you are still human. for awhile i was a little intimidated by the super DBer..lol the way you stay so positive really helps me. i am strong and my kids know it. last night after the hockey game i put my S in bed. he says "dad, can i just stay with you? i dont want to go to moms. im happy here." it about broke my heart. i stayed calm and happy and told him.. "liam, you need to go to moms. she loves you and you love her. it will be ok. you will have fun and i will have you just in time for another hockey game." he told me he loves me and went to sleep. moments like that really stab my heart yet make me feel good. what im doing is making a difference in his life.
i am super stressed out. i am doing the focus stuff. it is helping. i just gotta get used to the new schedule and figure out a good routine. i can do this. my STBX told me theres no way they would let me into school. well she was wrong about that. and alot of other things. her loss. lol
