wow I have reading this all for sometime now...And I am really pulling for you Suppo...believe it or not it sounds like you are in a good position. Don't worry about the om those R seldom work more than 80 percent fail. Easier said then done. I am in the same boat as well and it is hard to deal with the anger. Hang in there I am pulling for you. Try getting some protein shakes to help with weight if you can't eat.
